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& Tuesday, February 28, 2006

it just won't happen

my design work is officially stuck.

why can't i be like Jacquez Herzog or Shigeru Ban or even that fidgety Sofia. i wish i had their brains so that i could come up with architecture that wows... or just to get me an A- would be good enough. URRGGHHHGHGGHGRRAAARRR. and Revit is really testing my patience. why are we using something that is too expensive to be used in the firms out there. what's the whole point huh.

hello, whoever is up there. gimme some inspiration. i'll trade you one of my bags.

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& Wednesday, February 22, 2006

i miss Michael

i miss my darling so much. haven't seen him for 9 days. haven't heard his voice in 5 days. haven't got a message from him since 2 days ago.

when he comes back next friday i'm gonna jump on him and hug him hard and kiss him like a sloppy puppy.

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not my typical day

i needed to do my book review that's gonna be due on friday, so this morning i decided to be a good student and go to the national library to actually read the book, instead of handing in a puff of smoke.
so i got dressed, got my laptop, took the bus, and settled for a nice seat by the 7th storey window.
i was trying to concentrate on the boring book, and would periodically drift off and look into the distance, until something blocked my view. let's call him Mr Freaky. if i'm not wrong he was in a light blue shirt and jeans, and forgive me for saying this, but he is rather massive.
not that i have anything against bigger fellow human beings, but he is really Freaky.
at first he chose a seat diagonally opposite me, and put down his books. instead of sitting down, he hovered about the chair doing nothing for awhile. i caught all these out of a corner of my eye.
and then, after a couple of minutes, he picked up his books, walked over and sat right NEXT to me.

here comes trouble.

you know it when people stare at you don't you? even though you're not looking back at them. its like some creepy crawlie that is so near your foot, you wanna step on it, but yet it hasn't exactly bitten you or anything, so it doesn't justify killing it.

and so Mr Freaky was just staring and staring. i froze in my seat. i couldn't exactly bolt cos my laptop was connected to the socket and i was all comfy with my things all around. and as he stared, he pretended to read his book sometimes. and this awkward staring continued. i didn't want to look at Freaky. i felt damn scared, so i sent out SOS smses to Mon and Isaac, and i already planned to ask Isaac to come over in case anything happens.

darling, why are you in thailand when i most need you!??!?!

so Freaky tried to talk to Freaked.

err..you studying in local U?
are you studying business?
political arts?
social science?
blahblah??? (insert names of different uni courses)

ya.
no no no no no.
i don't study arts.

end of conversation. (by the way, Freaky is the extreme opposite of good looking)

Freaky continued to stare.
lucky Freaky sensed that Freaked was Really Freaked and left after awhile. and Freaky tried to be friendly and said something like 'se..seyuh.' and Really Freaked could only utter 'mhf' while still staring at her lappy.

what weird citizens at the library! can they implement a new rule?? 'DO NOT FREAK GIRLS OUT'. or something like that. i am temporarily scarred and have a phobia of that seat now.

i think the sight of Freaky psychologically scared me quite badly. because on the way home from town, i swear i boarded the bus 162. but it turned out to be 143 and transported me all the way to Toa Payoh. i dunno how the hell that happened.
what a Freaky day. so i bought a sally hansen DIY french mani set. so that i could fuss over my nails at home and return a sense of normalcy to my day.

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& Saturday, February 18, 2006

SDE bash at momo's

went for my fac's bash on thurs night. it was an eventful night. somehow i got the title 'miss hot' by sheer luck, and then i got BANNED from the club together with 2 other friends-long story, let's just say it's cos of some young punks.GRRRRR. but in the end managed to go back in, without the young punks of course. it turned out to be a really fun night! cos so many of the arki pple were there, and we ended up throwing shoes around on the dance floor. HAHAHA.

a couple of pics for the miss hot thing (the thing is, i don't look hot la. haha), will post pics from end of night when i get them.

Charissa got pulled on stage too!!
and Danny presented me my prize. hahaha we couldn't stop laughing lah.

and this is Mr Hot, some arki year 1 i think. he's holding the movie pass for 2!! i want my free movie!!! ahh. haha

i like this picture the most! it's really nice, and can't see all my bodily flaws =X

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& Tuesday, February 14, 2006

numb

today is valentines' day. and all i see around me are couples or couples-to-be or couples-that-may-not-be and puppylovers and lifelong lovers. i don't have my lover with me cos he is overseas, but as long as we're thinking of each other i'm happy enough =)
2 of my schmates, Marsh n Jx, bought me an orange gerberra( i think that's what it is). i kinda told them to. hahahaa. cos i was all whiny in school saying i don't have my bf with me and that i have to rent a bf for the night and so they should be nice to me and buy me a flower when they go buy flowers for their gfs. so they got a nice flower for me. see how sweet my sch mates are?. =)
then i went for dinner with Monica and Caryn at Spaggeddies(how to spell!?). and we were chatting and laughing but could not help notice that all around us were couples!!! aaaahhh. we seemed pretty out of place. when Caryn couldnt finish the half chicken she had, the waiter came over with a tiramisu and said it was on the house, from the restaurant manager. we never found out who is the manager, but he/she must have pitied 3 young girls without dates. haha. it was really nice of he/she though.
then me and Caryn went to join 2 of her frens for drinks while Monica had another engagement. as we walked along Orchard road there were so many identical looking bouquets of roses, and suddenly roses don't seem special anymore. each bouquet is so meticulously wrapped in a tight bunch, with layers and layers of crepe paper around them. it is too perfect. the roses looked like they had a corset around them, holding them straight up so that all their flaws beneath the blossoms would be covered up. i would rather a loose bunch of lilies, wrapped perhaps a little haphazardly with recycled paper pressed with dried plants, and tied with a flamboyant ribbon. it just looks so much more natural and elegant.
and then, after i came home, i received a piece of news that made me forget all the fun i had today. my mum told me that my ex-tution teacher in secondary school, auntie Alice, had passed away on sunday. i just stood there shocked. i assumed that she would always be the same as before. she has been tutoring my brother only recently. and he was supposed to have a lesson soon.
she just left like that. i felt like she was being treated unfairly. she was only 49. and she's a really nice lady. i heard it is something to do with heart failure, and that she has been coughing alot recently and appeared very skinny. i only just heard. she went into hospital on saturday and on sunday she was gone.
i feel guilty that i never knew her health was suffering, because auntie Alice had been a great teacher to me, and she was my parents' friend. my mum said she cried damn badly when she heard the news this afternoon. i didn't cry, but i just can't believe it. it hasn't sunk in yet. it's been less than an hour since i heard the news.
death is hard to come to terms with, even if the person in question is just an acquaintence. its like someone you know vanished from earth forever, and the fact that you will never ever see the person again, even if you wish you could or want to, is just difficult to accept. and most of the time, they leave without reason. taken away in the most cruel way, without the chance to say goodbye.

it is sad that on this day of love, her family has to weep for one whom they love.

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at 11:27 PM

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& Sunday, February 12, 2006

down memory lane

i love taking pictures because they capture moments in a single frame so easily. there's so much to think back fondly on. pictures bring back memories that might have slipped my mind, which i don't want to forget. i can understand why 'photo whores' act the way they do. haha.

the street i lived on in Galle,Sri Lanka, on a YEP trip in june last year.

sitting down after a day's work to watch the guys play soccer.

halfway thru working on e mural

the fantastic view of the indian ocean and beyond while lying on the crisp grass patches of the Galle fort

the very recent Surf n Sweat performance group pic!

the very first picture i took with Michael, njc prom 03.

the very first picture i took with Michael as a couple, july 05.

me with my favourite girl =)

clubbing at chinablack, sometime in mid 04. thats me!! hahah

miss mmmm shaking her booty, can't really see me. the last in this queue of 3.

me with the bitchy members of our so called bitch club. Peishi, Monica and Magdalene.

with studio mate Yuying, with my brown with blond streaked short hair, early 05.

a visit to the construction site. Zitao took this picture of me.

the MESS before each submission.

at a Rag event dinner last year. Crystal, Junxian and Melvin.

what happens when you don't sleep the night before.

a group pic of my very first Studio group on a field trip to Bangkok. they are the people who make my life in school fun!

Crystal's and my stash after just one trip of shopping. bleh.

comic relief.

end 04. wala's before my last exam paper i remember. hahaha. just nice the four of us are in the same pic =)

Mui's bday in March 05. me with my squash babes, the few friends i've had since sec 1 or 2.

during one of our dinners.

an OCS social night, oct 05, with Sarah. i loved her hair!

recently at Glady's 21st.

her hilarious bday cake!!!

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& Tuesday, February 07, 2006

i don't understand

i don't understand why i am so sad
i don't understand why can't my cramps go away
i don't understand why i'm affected the way i am
i don't understand why crying gives puffy eyes
i don't understand why people act the way they do
i don't understand the stress that i'm feeling
i don't understand why i don't understand
and you won't understand how bad i feel.

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& Sunday, February 05, 2006

surf and sweat!!

performed for the ntu annual beach event at Sentosa this morning. haven't performed such a tiring item since forever. but it went surprisingly well. people stopped their games to watch and shouted 'Encore!!' at the end. heh. just glad that i didn't gabrah on stage. BUT. i forgot to put on lipstick. freak. and so by the end of the dance i looked extremely pale due to lack of oxygen. some army event coordinator gave his card to us. hopefully can dance and earn money. i don't care even if it's in tekong. just give me the money, i'll slap on extra make up to make sure no one recognises me, and not mind having recruits gawking.

Glady and me!!

Emily! she has no fats la... so jealous.

Maybelle!

Celine lives in the same condo, same tower as me!! not the same wing and same floor though. haha. we're both in NUS too.

read her cap for her name. i want!

Adrian! this picture doesn't do him justice, really. he is actually the prettiest boy i know!

Suman. he slept less than 4 hrs the previous night and can still dance well so power.

so well that was all the people in this dance team! (i dunno wads the name of our team though. hahaha) ok need to do some work update laterss!!

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at 8:13 PM

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