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& Saturday, August 19, 2006

fitful.

i am tipsy after 2 glasses of champagne. uncharacteristic of me.
disco lights are so bright. all i see is a sea of blue.
drove home, street lights blinking.
i wonder what would happen if i drove straight into that bend. will anyone cry for me?
the words look detached. why does f-i-t-f-u-l mean fitful and spelt as fitful?
i want to sleep, but my mind is clouded.

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at 1:27 AM

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& Thursday, August 10, 2006

stand up for Singapore!!

last wed was National Day and i trooped over to dear's place to watch the fireworks. he lives so near the stadium, the fireworks are practically out his window. yoohooo!! damn nice man.

after that i went down to join my usual clubbing khakis at Zouk. it was my first time in velvet. it's not bad to just sit around and chat there. Kwanny specially ordered a Bellini for me! so sweet! haha. it's really nice! makes me wanna dump hard liquor. but to depend on champagne to get high will take like a hundred bucks, so i can't really dump hard liquor all together. Mr Martell VSOP was present, and i'm so proud of myself that i didn't even flirt with him the whole night. teehee.

sadly the music at Zouk was quite slow and boring that night, and yes they played 'Stand up for Singapore' and everyone sang along to it until the part where everyone forgets the lyrics.

yesterday was Mahjong session at Sheng's place. i only played 2 fengs, but managed to game once MUA!!! 4 animals!!! ZI MUO!!! damn high~~~~ that pretty much covered my cab fare back home with a couple of dollars extra for supper. ;p it was really good to see my dear girlfriends again, though not all of them were around. Sheng's flying off to Sweden for half a year. hope she has a great time there!

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at 11:45 PM

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& Tuesday, August 08, 2006

f.r.i.e.n.d.s

the subject of friendship came up in a family conversation today.

Papa said:
there are colleagues, friends outside of work, and family. they must be well balanced. you won't live well if you lack anyone of them, or have an imbalanced mix of them.

he added that he would be worried if my bro and i don't go out with friends and stay at home all day. he liked us to have our own good friends and to hang out with them, although he wished that we wouldn't stay out too late (which is what i do almost all the time. oops). on a side note, i think my parents have been really sweet, not scolding me even when i come home at 3am half the time, and 1am the other half of the time. heehee.

anyway, back to the topic. i think Papa is right. i imagine me without my dear friends, i imagine me this depressed hermit. ironically, sometimes i feel like friendship is meant for us to experience the so called love-hate relationship. it's always easier for a friend to aggravate you than a total stranger. it's cos of the respect and love you have for them, that you react strongly when they do or say something that threatens to shatter the perfection they have in your heart.

and when that happens it's inevitable that the thought of 'why the **** do i have such a friend!?' surfaces.

in my eyes the perfect friend:

gives me a pat or a hug when i'm down and listens to my grumblings
understands and emphatises
goes for stuff with me that i don't really want to go alone for
brings a flower if i perform
covers for me when i fall asleep in class
lets me doodle on her/his notebook and lecture notes
says meet at 1pm and actually shows up at 1pm
tells me his/her honest opinion when i ask 'does this make my butt look fat?'
buys lunch for me when i am damn busy
will be able to tell me 'your skirt looks like a lampshade' without worrying that i'll scream
is straightforward but tactful
takes my stationery without asking and says 'thanks' with that geeky grin
is on the same frequency as i am
know that i have my own life and is supportive about things i pursue
listens to my problems and holds me when i cry
is full of life but down to earth
watches 'sex in the city' with me while not forgetting my worries and in the middle of the show asks me 'are u still worried?'
bakes cheese cake together (Monnie baby!=))
is able to take my crappy jokes and be crazy with me
is not a hypocrite! can't stand those two-headed blood sucking snakes
makes sure i feel comfortable if we're hanging out with his/her friends
tells me about the latest sale in town, or where to get a good bargain
gossips with me endlessly. haha
is humble and speaks with truth in his/her heart

there's just so many things that i can list. feels kinda weird that i'm matching definite qualities to my concept of a friend. i'm sure i don't fulfill all these criterias, but i am working on it. i hope i'm as good a friend as my friends are to me.

i know what a friend shouldn't be like, but i shouldn't list it down cos it is evil, and someone will say i'm being mean and bitchy. and there's always karma. what if one day i become everything that i wish i was not?! *GASP*

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at 11:17 PM

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& Thursday, August 03, 2006

the epitome of laziness

am tanned and rested from the Bintan getaway. in short we went there to eat/sleep/shit/swim/tan/play card games/play mahjong. now i am feeling lazier than ever. dunno how i'm gonna go to school next week(ARGH SCHOOL IS STARTING). okay 'nuff said cos i'm so lazy so i'm just gonna post some pictures.

i really loved the holiday, and i was really happy to spend 3 days with my dearest boyfriend :) waking up in the morning beside him and having him give me piggy back rides in the sea were some of my favourite moments. my darling super love me! hehe.

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at 8:55 PM

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