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& Thursday, December 28, 2006

dilemma

i'm feeling very selfish. i'm developing this distaste for Michael's work. it takes so much time away. the army allows only 4 days leave a school year. wtf can be done with that. he works 8-6 every weekday. this year's leave was used up for a cca camp. as much as he tries to go out with me a couple of weekdays for dinner, and on weekends, it still feels like school term to me. it doesn't help that i'm not working and i have to sleep in to pass my days. i hate to admit this but i feel so lonely sometimes.

pathetic.

it's not a short term problem, that's the problem.

1 year, 2 years, i will be fine. but i'm not sure about 3 years, 4 years..i don't wanna think further than that.

i love him, but i'm starting to hate what he does for a living. tell me what to do.

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& Monday, December 25, 2006

grey christmas

my brother's playing 'have yourself a merry little christmas' on his guitar now. it's lovely. although my family doesn't celebrate christmas day, somehow i feel more alone than usual. slept through the day.. did nothing else.

yup, feels like this..

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& Monday, December 18, 2006

RRWWWOOAARRR

was too lazy to blog for the past 1+ mth. in fact i am still very very lazy. to the point that instead of going for the full 4 days of dance camp, i told them i had a family holiday and i'm only gonna go on the 2nd day which is tmr. (actually we didn't go on holiday but that's another story)

during when i was MIA from here good things and bad things have happened.

in short, in chronological order:
submission of that darn design project on 9th Nov
submission of that darn cultural studies project on 17th Nov (we went to Zouk for this project. funky or wad. but the B- grade really funked it up)
submission of that darn history group essay on 20th Nov, worth 20%, and took like 20 meetings. but luckily this essay wasn't that darned. the comments were supposedly not bad, but again i was too lazy to collect the essay back, my friend did it, and thus i have no idea what the prof wrote.
frantically organising and doing last minute photocopying of notes to study for exams.
dad goes for checkup, dad discovers tumour, me cry, dad goes for operation, me cry. me cry cry cry. dad is blessed and tumour is removed just in time (all these in one week. thanks guan ying ma)
and then i take my cultural studies paper (please let me pass it)
and then i take my history paper,28th Nov
and hoorayy!! no more exams! i only had 2 papers shoot me la!
brings brother shopping for prom clothes
dad gets out of hospital
i have my bday party the next day- thanks to all who came!
and on my bday baby cooks me dinner! :D *muackmuack
the wednesday after my bday i get stoned at zouk and end up puking by the river. FFFFFAAARRRRKKKKKING martell. and also i am a lousy drinker.
i try my best to keep up with my amore classes.
i want to lose weight
so i drag my darling to mellben seafood and between the 2 of us we finished a plate of venison, a plate of kang kong, a bowl of rice, a can of green tea, a claypot of crab beehoon which has the big fat crab sitting at the top, and a whole plate of man tou.

meet up with charissa and jiahe, resume our usual serious dicussions about biological mismatches

i am the first arsehole to get my results. 12 dec. beat that!!!! iya cos the registrar office so blur, made a mistake of printing this sem's results when i only wanted a transcript of past sem's results.

my studio visits DP architect. which is located in, of all places, marina square. so..
i shop at mango sale.
and zara.
and challenger
and koolook.
in essence i have cost myself and those who love me 850 bucks in 5 days.
and i have a problem keeping my roving eyes to myself.
and my itchy hands.
we all meet up with Junwen, who just came back from aus, and play poker with peanut shells as bets, destroy peanut pyramids and chomp on starburst candy.

applied for exchange programme. hound my past tutors for a referral letter.
tmr i am going for dance camp, and i so don't feel like it. because i went for it 2 years ago and it was freaking tiring okay. i only remember myself panting and running.

that's one and a half month's worth of activities summarised. now chopchop show some pictures, cos i haven't bathed, and i haven't finished packing.

Birthday party!

Birthday dinner! the food is good! my darling how fantastic first time cooking summore. thankew baby!! *lovelove.

'The Night I Prayed to the River God'

Drinks with Charissa and Jiahe!! :D

my favourite skinny babe is coming home soon! can't wait for the stayover!

AKI smoke society. a funny picture taken a few months ago (the arki community goes to an empty plot of land and sets up a bbq, throws sparklers all over and sets fire to the adjacent construction site.) we are the coolest people around. HA.

my transcript with the error that makes me the first to get my results. see the dates? officially it is released on the 26th.

GAHHHHH!!!! i need to pack.

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